Pain

       A lot of the pain comes from the fact that I can't tell you to your face. You have made me feel like the happiest guy on earth. And within a day you've managed to make me feel like the lousiest instead. You make me feel like I'm just not good enough, even though all I did was care about you. Even though I was there whenever you needed it, or just to say hi and make sure you were happy. I was the one on the other end of the phone at night from 1 and a half to 3 hours out of the night. I was the one who asked you how you were every day and how your night was. I told you how hard it was for me to open up anymore, you know how I keep things bottle up to make things seem easier. But I ignored what I thought I should do and I opened up to you, I told you I was willing to try and take a chance. At first you said yes, but then you turned around and slapped me in my face.    
       Well, you maybe happy with that other guy now, and don't get me wrong you should be happy. But what about me? What about how I feel, how you made me feel. It's like you swept me off my feet, but then ripped the carpet out from under me, not even thinking about my feelings and you it makes me feel. You said it yourself how well connected right from the beginning, that you were able to tell me things some of your closest friends don't even know.... The worst part about it, is that I'm not sad that you changed your mind. Because I'd love to just be friends. What hurts is that you know what I've been through, you know my past. You know how I haven't been able to be open to any other girl or anyone else for that matter because of what people have put me through in the past. I trusted you, because I could see you were different. You were different, but now your just one of them. Another person taking advantage me, just because I'm the nice guy.

Ms. Adams

My best learning experience was the music system in Lansing High School. Lets start with my biggest inspiration, Ms. Adams. If it wasn't for this woman, I would not be as involved in music as am now. I started off as a freshman taking chorus for an easy A. That year was a big eye opener. Ms. Adams showed me how important music really is. Sophmore year, this was increased. I was convinced to do my first solo, well duet. Ms. Adams showed me the potential I trully have. After this is when my true music journey began. After my duet, I was invited to join the very select group, Varsity Chorale. This class was kind of challenging, but the fun and passion was SO worth it. I was very priviledged that Ms. Adams let me into her select group, without auditioning might I add :P. After that first year of VC, I knew music was my life. The next year, I did Mixed Chorus, Varsity Chorale, and a new choir. Ms. Adams further convinced me to join Show Choir. This choir wasn't very hard at all. It was simply there for kids with passion towards singing... well it was also there to fend off the PMWD, Post Musical Withdrawal Disorder. this choir was there only to give us something fun to do. One of the biggest things I'm forever grateful for is the musical. I wouldn't do the musical, I just wouldn't. But, knowing my potential and love for music, Ms. Adams MADE me do it, she even signed me up herself without my approval. Simply put being in the Lansing Musicals are easily the highlights of my life, and will be at the top forever. I love Ms. Adams. She was my inspiration throughout my highschool career to be as involved in music as a person can be. Thanks to Ms. Adams opening my eyes and pushing me further into music, my life truthfully now has a purpose. I truly believe music is the reason I keep moving forward. If I didn't have the exposure to music that I have had thanks to Ms Adams, I honestly don't know were I would be. Music is the definition of my life,it really is. Thanks toMs. Adams, I was able to fill every open gap in my life with music. Last year I was in FIVE choirs. I was in Mixed Chorus, Show Choir, the student ran accapella group the Lansingers, All County, and Varsity Chorale. Even though I am not in Lansing anymore, I have still been able to seak out multiple choirs to join in. I am currently in the TC3 chorus, Voices, the select group Inner Voices, and as of Monday, the VERY select group the Jubilee Singers. And guess what? Ms Adams is still my conductor for Voices!!! I love this woman with all my heart. She has truly becaome and trully will be one of my best friends for many years to come. Without Ms Adams, I wouldn't have had to opporunity to bring out the true Chris sherman. Before her I was Chris sherman, the nice boy that everyone liked. Now, thanks to Ms Adams, I am Chris Sherman, the true epidomy of music in and of itself. I am forever grateful Ms Adams. I can never fully thank you enough.

Music

I LOVE music. If i didnt have music in my life, i dont know what i would do. lets see, last year i was in 5 different choirs at once. two of the where select groups. this year im in three and one is select. i just love to sing. i can sing practically anything. i sing tenor and bass. sometimes i can even sing a high C. if you dont know what this means, basically i can sing as high and sapranos can in faltsetto. I love listening to music too. I like the music in the radio, like 95.5 and 106.1. My favorite band in Linkin Park. They are the best band ever. I will always have music in my life. Comment on this and tell me about you're standpoint on music and if you sing and what not.

Essays

I hate essays. I don't think im good at them. The intro is too hard to write. i like writing the rest of the essay, but i feel like crap after because its never good enough for the professors even when i try very hard and feel its quality work. just saying

Voices Monday 20th

Monday was a great day. First off, Em Britt and i all went out for lunch before our classes. It was so much fun to be with them. Then at 6 pm i went to my first Ltapa meeting. Ltapa is an organization that funds all the music in my old school. Me being a true music person, i felt like i had to join to stay connected with the musical and such. It was fun, but Voices was amazing, again. We sang all our old misic, and got some new pieces as well. I love this choir. My whole section looks up to me, because I'm the only one that knows what I'm singing and am confident in singing out. After Voices Inner Voices had a meeting. Inner Voices is a select group, which i didn't even have to audition to get in, while everyone else did. haha I was excited for that. I can't wait for next week when we start singing. Thats it for now

Freshman 1st Semester

So far, I like college. The classes aren't too strenuous yet, though I hate how I'm getting my 3rd essay assignment in English already. Dr. Grant is something else. Her personality just fun, sometimes. She is very blunt and honest. Most of the time it's funny but other times it can really piss you off! But we aren't at college to make friends with the teachers right? Chorus is so much fun. I like some of the music we are doing a lot. Others I don't really prefer, but I do not really care as long as I'm singing. For the most part, the professors have been very nice and easy going for now, hopefully the rest of the semester rides out as smoothly. I would say that the hardest part of college is the homework. It's not that there is a lot of homework.. well there is quite a bit but it's not overly time consuming yet, it's that I am horrible at doing homework. I have a hard time sitting down and getting started in doing my homework. However, once I get started its a breeze. It's just that initial push that I need to get doing it.
I would say that the thing I dislike the least about college is paying for it. I've had to pay for college all by myself, which really sucks. I hated when I had to take out a student loan, because I hate borrowing money, no matter how much. Luckily I got to scholarships so I'll get most of it back this time. Another thing that I don't like is driving to school. I like driving, but I don't like paying for gas haha.
The most fun I have at college is on mondays. Every monday Britt, Em and I all hang out for an hour or two and drive around to get a bite to eat. It's so much fun, because the three of us just have a good time when we are together.
If I had to change on thing about college it's working out... Well, I am going to change that, but that's beside the point. With going to college, I had to cut down hours at working on the farm. The farm helped me stay in great shape, but now with college, it's been hard for me to find time for my workout outlet. Also, I need to get my hours back working so I can get more money again. I love college and all, but I have had to cut back on work which is good because I get a little break from it(only the 3 days I have school) but its bad because I really liked building myself a nice financial support system. Well, thats all I can think of that I want to say about college, si until next time. Bye

The Horrific day of 9/11

9/11 was and always will be a tragedy. There were alot of things we all remember from that day. What we remember most would probably be the destruction of the twin towers. One minute they are there and another minute later those iconic towers crumbled right in our very hands. But what we don't always think about is how we were able to fight back. On flight 93, the passengers all rose up to take the plane back over... For me and most people alike, 9/11 was a giant eye opener. That day showed the U.S. that we aren't invincible. Before 9/11, war and conflict had never touched the soil of the U.S.(besides internal conflicts of course). Every big war we fought in was on the ground of some other country. This kamikaze act showed me how vulnerable we really are. It's a scary thought to think that that could happen at any time, in any place, even from right under us. 9/11 has been and always will be an emotional roller coaster filled with tears and anger. 

Voices

I am really excited!  Last night's rehearsal was so much fun. First we ate and talked amongst one another to get to know each other. Then we sang some amazing songs too. I got to visit Mrs. Garnett and Ms. Adams which was really nice. But then after Voices there were auditions held for Inner Voices. I got in without even auditioning, and then I got Mrs. Garnett to audition. She didn't think she would make it but I told her that she is an amazing singer. Basically last night was just such a happy night for me.